Clock-ticking. And then it halts.

Just when you thought everything went on great, think again. I think most of the young couples getting married are so eager to get married, having fun for the preparations and buying stuffs, but ignored the fact that they are (or will be) mentally-challenged in all sorts of way. I kid you not. Getting married is indeed a new big step in your life. Yes, it's NEW and BIG. You can never imagine what your life would become after that 'SAH' is ... ~sah! I now think I understand why there were tears in brides and brides mothers' eyes soon as the procedure is done. For the brides : No more compromising for us. Your husband will be the final NO or YES in all decisions. For their mothers : It's because they have been through all those. So, that's why. Of course, there are a lot of disagreement and discussion being done before entering that different life, but your partner would usually comfort you with "Don't worry, babe. I'll be by your side and we'll go through this together". Pray harder. Maybe your partner will actually do as he/she says.

Why am I blasting all these? Because obviously I am experiencing the peak of madness+insanity in my life as a B2B. I cannot understand how a man could be more mature than us but acts as a 5-year-old kid when it's coming to arguing over an ice-cream. Some people have told me that the person's name resembles their character. For example, Aishah means Lively, and Jamilah means Beautiful. Well, I believe so. Because apparently what we speak out everyday is a du'a. So if we were to call Jamilah (beautiful) by her name (not shortforms like Jam, Milah, Jamey), I truly believe that she will turn out to be a 'beautiful' lady throughout her life, be it physically or by her characteristic. Very unfortunate for me, neither of our names (my partner & I) spell 'PATIENCE'. For those of you who are named 'Sabri' / 'Sabariah'. Alhamdulillah. Good for you and the other half.

Of course everyone's life is kinda hectic at the moment. You wish to have someone by your side to really share it with and laugh about all the stupid moves you've been doing for the past few weeks. But sometimes we have to realize, we are living in the real world. Not everyone is thinking the same as you do. No one could actually understand how it feels like being in your shoe. Yeah, who can? When there are times even YOU, yourself cannot interpret what's been going on in your own life?

Heh.

So yesterday was another progress of my preparation for my reception. But, I just do not feel like writing it down here. Simply because I do not know if it's even necessary to shout out publicly about it, when the person who I supposed-to share it with, doesn't even care or bother. Maybe I am going into that new life, alone. With an invisible man next to me. Don't get me wrong, he is there. Just that he's not really.

And you must be freaking happy right now because all your plans seem to work fine. Good for you!

p/s : this is labeled under 'Procedure'.